No Guarantees

One of a parent’s biggest fears is seeing their child drive off in their vehicle and not making it safely to their destination. My daughter is 18 yrs old. She has been driving by herself for 2 years now, and still every time she leaves in her car, fear tries to creep into my heart. I pray for a hedge of protection to surround her every day. I trust in God to keep her safe. But still that fear wants to creep in Every Single Time she gets behind the wheel. I have to shut it down. I have to make myself think on other things, positive things, Godly things. But still in the back of mind, the fear and anxiety try to linger.
This past weekend, in our small close knit community, a parent’s worst nightmare came true. A sweet 16 year old girl did not make it safely to her destination. She had friends waiting on her. They had places to go, fun to be had, happy memories to make. None of that happened. Allyson died in a one vehicle accident. Alone. She did not arrive safely to her destination.
Her loved ones never got to say good bye. woman looking at sea while sitting on beach
They will never get to see her smile again.
They will never  hear her laughter again.
They will never feel the warmth of her hugs again.

They are broken, devastated. I can’t even imagine the extent of their pain. I can’t stop thinking about them.  I can’t stop thinking about her. I can’t stop thinking about how she didn’t arrive safely to her destination.

Allyson played the flute for our high school marching band. Other than that, I don’t know much about her. I had met her before, when I served on the band booster board.  I chaperoned many band events, served her food many times,  but I didn’t know her on a personal level. I have no idea what she aspired to do with her life, who she wanted to be. I have no clue what her hopes and dreams were, but I know she had them. I can’t get it out of my head how her life ended way too soon! She should have arrived safely! I’m heartbroken for her. Heartbroken that her life goals are left unfulfilled. Just heartbroken. I have to remind myself that the Word tells us that it rains on the just as well as the unjust. We will all go through trials and tribulations. Life isn’t always fair. But through it all, God is with us. God is with Allyson’s loved ones. I just hope and pray that they know this. That they know Him. That while their ship is battered, and their sails are torn, He is the Anchor that will keep them from drowning in their sorrow. I pray that the peace that surpasses all understanding will encompass their hearts and that they feel the comforting arms of Jesus holding them up.

woman carrying girl while showing smileI am going to hug my daughter, my boys, my husband, all of my loved ones, a little tighter. I am going to continue to pray a hedge of protection around all of them. I will bind the anxiety and fear that tries to invade my heart, and I will continue to praise God for all that He is and all that He does for His children. I will not take today for granted, for no one is guaranteed tomorrow.
Please lift Allyson’s family and friends up in prayer.

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